Time Wasted!

I couldn’t update this blog because I’m having trouble with my phone so I didn’t have internet access so I just saved all my posts on my laptop so I would update when I finally got the chance to go on the internet. I hope I do find you all well.

So I was supposed to start my fast a long time ago but I didn’t because I kept pushing it back every time. I would wake up knowing I had to fast but I would find myself eating later on in the day. No matter how much I tried, I just couldn’t stay away from food. That’s when I realized that I have become a food addict and that I just didn’t have the right mindset. I just found myself eating even when I wasn’t even hungry. Because I knew I was starting my fasting soon, I found myself binging because I kept telling myself that it was the last time I was eating in a very long time so I had to eat to the very last bit. For that reason, I gained even more from the last weigh-in.

My biggest scare came when, one night, I could feel pain in/on my heart. When I sleep, I usually lay on my stomach and that night I couldn’t do it. Each time I tried, my heart was so painful and I ended up sleeping on my back. That’s when I realized how important keeping healthy is! And that’s when I told myself that enough is enough! I have to break this addiction else I will not live long. If I continue like this, I might have a heart attack one of these days! Just the thought of that is making me want to lose this weight even more. So finally, I’m going to start my water fast. I have decided to alternate between water-fasting and intermittent-fasting (IF). I’m thinking of doing 7 days on water and then 7 days IF, and just continue alternating until I get to my goal weight of 64kg. Wish me luck, people!